It's been a while since I've written about my agoraphobia issues, today I recieved some news that I wanted to share with you all. It gave me hope, I hope it does the same for you.
Through the last 2 years I have seen (rarely) and spoken to (at length) Doctors upon Doctors who have repeatedly told me that there is basically nothing they can do for me. Until I could make appointments in a Mental Health Centre which is nigh on impossible for me to contemplate at this time. I felt disheartened and specifically during the last few weeks I've felt let down and forgotten about by my GP's surgery.
I had another 'episode' (for want of a better word) a few weeks ago and it resulted in me attending an emergency appointment at my local health centre. Everything got far too much. I genuinely hold my hands up and admit I couldn't cope. I was getting so lost in trying to figure out a way around my mood swings, panic attacks and agoraphobia.
I saw a locum.
I'd never seen her before.
She has given me more than she will probably ever know.
After putting me on a range of new medication she wrote, in length, to the Mental Health Centre in the area. Who quickly issued me a standard appointment letter....
Here we go again. Or so I thought.
After speaking to her about the letter she went out of her way to show me she was surprised and annoyed for me.
Whatever she did next I can never thank her enough for.
I recieved a phonecall today from a CPN in the area. Community Psychiatry Nurse. The phonecall entailed a light 'chat' about the agoraphobia aspect of my mental health. And after holding my breath and waiting for them to suggest me attending an appointment the opposite happened.
Tomorrow I meet Andrew.
Tomorrow I start building a life for myself outside these four walls.
Tomorrow Andrew is coming to my home to carry out a psych evaluation to see how they can help me in dealing with my mental health situation.
And to think the Dr's told me time and time again they do not do home visits.
I'm excited to see if this will help. I'm nervous beyond belief but I'm ready to try and kick this thing in the nuts. SO HARD. I have my fighting attitude primed and I vow to be as open and honest with Andrew as I have been with all of you.
I will keep you updated on my progress.
There *will* be progress.
Just you wait and see...